Sad and Scary

Today I took Tad to get his haircut. You are not required to get a haircut in order to have an EEG done. However, as a mommy of someone who doesn't have patience in getting his hair clean: when the neurologist office is going to cement leads to your child's head... many, many leads, you want an easy cleanup. Long hair is not easy.

So off we went to fantastic Sam's.

After his haircut, he got dark all the sudden. "Mommy, my friend Zach died this weekend. He had a seizure. He is with Jesus now. God said, 'Enough, get on up here with me, Zach'. So Zach obeyed God. I am sad, but I do not need to cry."

After I verified the facts, which of course Tad had down perfectly, I got scared. Zach and Tad have gone to school together long before Tad ever came into our lives. Since a pre-k program for autistic kids. Zach could not speak, but could communicate very well with sign language and in other ways. When we enrolled Tad in Coquina Elementary after we brought him to our home, Zach soon followed. When Tad arrived at THS after a stint at Fieldston, Zach was there too. Zach went to live with his Dad and they haven't been together for about a year I guess.

If Tad thinks that he is sleeping without me by his side tonight, he has another thing coming. Every time he moves, I will be checking to see if he is ok. Tad's seizures are very very stable. But it is hard not to freak out as a mommy and think my child could be one bad one away from death.

Scares me. A lot.